Merry Christmas

Christmas is such a special time of year! I love celebrating the birth of our Savior. I was so full on new emotions this year as trying to really feel the spirit of Christmas. It's hard to describe in words the powerful feeling I felt this year but it was amazing. I'm so grateful for Christmas and the wonderful things that come with celebrating it. 

Thomas, Asher and I went and cut down a tree from Strawberry Canyon up in Idaho by Preston. Together we climbed up the mountain and dragged it back down to our truck. Asher loved every second of the adventure and the tree was incredibly beautiful!

Then i fully enjoyed getting our Christmas box out and decorating our tree and home. I lighted and decorated our whole tree all by myself. I strung 1400 lights and Asher helped my put on the ornaments.

This is a baby sling, our really good friends have a business called baby wearing and gave me this sling. I love it because it's really easy to use. I delivered our neighbor gifts while carrying Asher at the same time, it was awesome 

Thomas a I went to Wal-mart a couple days after Christmas and I found this adorable candle warmer. It's super cute and I got it for $7.00!! That's a super awesome DEAL! 

My parents came and visited Christmas Eve. We loved having them and Asher loved his presents. We also went to eat Chinese at our favorite Chinese restaurant in Logan called Wok On Wheels. 

We spend Christmas at Thomas family's house and i forgot to take pictures but it was really fun. I got a shirt, a really cute decorating thingy and  EXACTLY WHAT I ASKED SANTA FOR!!!! VIVA LA JUICY COUTURE. Thomas totally surprised me and I was really really happy!! Thomas got some awesome stuff to and Asher loved his toys.

Amy Butler Messenger Bag

So during the Logan gift show i gave out my number to a few people who liked my things a lot. I had a lady call me and order a laptop bag with John Deere fabric. It was really fun but frustrating to make this bag. Frustrating becasue it was the first time i have made it and fun becasue i really enjoy sewing new things. So this is the finished product and the lady ended up loving the bag. 

Logan Gift Show, Papers!!

 So I decided to go outside of my comfort zone, and try a fun gift show. It was held at the Riverwoods Conference Center in Logan, UT. As you can see from the picture, it's a really nice place. I didn't do as well as i would have liked, but I meet some great people, learned a few good lessons, and made enough money to make it worth it. If you asked me if i would do it again. I would say yes! defiantly, just not in the middle of the semester while I'm taking 14 credits. I was kind of crazy, but that's what makes life fun. 

Riverwoods Conference Center

I spent a lot of time and money making these 8 super cute bags, but bags were being sold at almost every booth for much cheaper, and I wasn' willing to sell mine for less then what there worth, so i didn't sell one bag. I got like a thousand

"O THOSE ARE SO CUTE, ADORABLE, ect. ect.I'm hoping to still sell them on e-bay, KSL, or something I'm not sure.

This picture is of Asher and I hanging out in front of our booth. 

I made about 30 sets of fridge magnates and everybody loved them. I had a few different sayings on them, and I sold every single one but 2 sets.

I feel that this was my biggest mistake. I absolutely loved the idea. I made recipe boxes. I got some cute paper, with a clear recipe box, with 6 tabs and I laminated them. I made 20 boxes and only sold 4. I don't think they sold because anybody could look at the cute things, and make it in their sleep. O well, It was a good lesson learned. Now I'm not sure what I'm going to do with 16 more recipe boxes.

 

These were my pride and joy. They are my secret design. I sold 5 lamps out of 6 that i made. 

So After I completed my gift show on Saturday, I had a full week of paper writing. If I though I went crazy getting ready for my gift show, I was about to find out my brain could go a little further. I seriously went more insane then I have ever have before in my life. I couldn't think straight, So during the week I accidentally shaved the bottom half of Asher's head bold while giving him a hair cut, I lost everything I put in my hands, and I spend so much time on facebook it was disgusting. I'm so grateful that week is over. But I did accomplish writing 24 pages. Including: 

14 pages written on my home-visit write-up for Infancy and early childhood development 

4 pages written on sibling abuse for my abuse and neglect class 

6 pages paper written on the debate of weather of not moderate alcohol  consumption is good for your health

All i can say is I"M SO GRATEFUL IT"S THANKSGIVING BREAK!! 

Mr. Potatohead and stuff

:) Today Asher went down for a nap and i came and sat down on our couch. I look over and on the floor lays a Mr. Potatohead. Last night while i was cleaning i put him all back together and he looked great. As i looked at him, his eyes were sideways, he's missing a nose, a mouth, both arms, both ears and a play skinny block is stuffed between his shoes and belly. It made me so happy i couldn't even believe it. Why?? I suppose it's becasue the sweetest little boy had the time of his life tearing him apart this morning.

:) So I'm taking part in the  Logan holiday gift show!! It's Friday and Saturday. I made a lot of stuff and I'm really excited to have my first boutique. I'm also nervous to go outside of my comfort zone. I will post pictures after the show.

:) I just cant get myself to listen to Christmas music yet. I just cant untill Thanksgiving is over.

:) Asher is learning how to talk. He is learning really well how to mimic what we say and it's so dang cute.

:) School is school and I'm SO excited to graduate, it will be done before i know it!!

My Autistic Sister Lucky.

(My sisters name has been changed from personal preference)

When I was younger having an autistic sister was very hard for me. Sometimes I felt embarrassed, somethings I felt like she got more attention, sometimes my heart would break because she wasn't like me and sometimes I would shy away from being a good sister because I always felt guilty for not being a good enough sister. Lucky always had short hair when we were younger. When i was about 4 or 5, I decided to cut all my long curly locks to be just like her. I left the hair along the sidewalk and on our neighbors porch.

One day we were at the swimming pool and some stupid lady said to my sister, "this isn't the boys locker room," I loudly and NOT politely screamed at the lady stating that "Lucky is my sister, you dumb lady!!" I'm sure she meant no harm but i did mean to stand up for my beautiful sister. It was extremely hard for me when I got to high school and she was changing and becoming more familiar with life's natural experiences. She had taken my pants (again!!!!) and a note was left in the pocket. It was to her boyfriend!!! I couldn't bear sitting in class. I ran outside and couldn't breath. It was to overwhelming for me to handle. I wanted my big sister to stay innocent forever!

For some reason it was extremely hard for me to be my sister's role model. When she started idolising me, i absolutely hated it. I didn't want her to want to be me. I wanted her to be my role model. I wanted to idolize MY older sister. It took for me to move to Alaska and then off to college that this was o.k. I gave her every high school club shirt and her favorite was my Madrigal jacket. I know she felt so proud every time she put it on!!! I know I'm not perfect but it was in those times that I wished I had not been afraid of her being my best friend.

It's been way to long since I've seen my sister and i miss her dearly. It's so hard for me to know she cant have some of the same blessing that I've been able to experience in my life. Sometimes it's just to hard to handle. But in the end I am reminded by a few words that my mother sings" God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son." It's more then overwhelming to know that when the right time comes my sister will be become perfect next to my side!!! What an amazing day to look forward to.

Being Adopted

Today I had a cool experience. Today I stood in a line with a man, his hair looked like it hadn't been washed for days, his cloths looked ragged and torn. His countenance was one to fear but i was able to see a different side. I went to donate plasma today, i had a couple free hours because my boys were in Perry. This man told me he goes twice a week four weeks a month, becasue he doesn't have a job. I was studying for my abuse and neglect test and had my notes in hand. While donating he leaned over and said poliety

"Can i ask you a question," "Yes" I anwsered.
"I would be careful going into a field like that," he said. Why? I asked
"You have to deal with a lot of mean people," he said.
"My sons got taken away from me becasue I was smoking pot,"
I said " I was taken away from my home to when i was younger becasue I was in an abusive and neglectful situation to,"
"I know you loved you boys and I know that it was hard for you but i couldn't be more gratful for what my mother did for me when she gave me what i really needed"
I want to teach others that it's possible to have a really bad experience when young but still SUCCEED!
He started to cry, it was so sad. In that moment I had a much greater understanding of a man I though i never thought possible. At the same moment I couldn't be more grateful for my blessings and being adopted.
He had nothing else to say but that he though women were evil and the world is going to end in 2012.

When i got up I said to never give up, and to have a super amazing day :D
Sometimes you have to wonder if you made a difference, I hope somehow i did. 

TOdaY

Today is to forgive
Today is to not judge
Today is to know people make mistakes
Today is to stand up for what you believe
Today is to know people can change, if they desire 
Nobody else
Today is to smile
Today is to wonder
Today is to ponder

Today i want to scream
Today i want to fight
Today i dont understand
Today the world is changing
Today i get confused
Today i want to cry
Today my heart breaks
Today i question
Today i feel lost 

Today i pray
Today i know it will be alright
Today i know that God will protect me
Today i understand 
Today i need not worry
Today i feel comfort
Today i feel close

I know that today i must not worry about the past or fear the future, i must make today amazing and yes only I can truly make today amazing.